You Are 80% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

How Evil Are You?

Well, I just can't believe I am 80% evil. I don't think so. I know I'm a nice guy and that everybody loves me. Swear!.. Like who am I kidding? BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Oh well... sometimes I amaze myself with the way I transfrom my self from a rugged-dirty-look to a prim-and-proper-pastor-look. Arni have decided to take a picture of our team and I can't help but laugh at it. And as what they say... looks can be deceiving. And if that's the case... I have deceived a lot.

Arni, Macky, Mark, Mommy Rena, Paoul and Moi!

* Arni, I love your jacket. I want one myself... Mwah!

* Macky, we know that you're soon to be daddy but you are showing it to everyone already...

*Mark, this is not a campaign photo shoot or something...

* Mommy Rena, you better take care of the customer on the other line...

* Paoul, I love your preppy look... and I love the way you wear those offensive pants of yours with your bulge screaming... Hehehehehe...

* And to myself... you look like a dork! A geek! Ugh!

I'm talking nonsense again. I don't know what to write next... Will just update once something interesting will happen to me... SOMEBODY SHOOT ME!

P.S.

I miss my gay friends... especially Mikey... *sigh*

I am sharing the same sentiments right now with a very dear friend of mine. She's broken hearted and there's no need for me to put the details of the whole story. Things just happened the least you expect them. Honestly, I feel sad about it. I have seen her how happy she was months ago and it seemed that everything was in its perfect place. She's been thru hell already and I know this friend of mine deserves all the happiness the world could offer.

Well Goddess... we can always say that sometimes, we experience things we don't deserve. But all of these things are happening for a reason. I may not have all the experience needed to be a good shrink but I am one helluva sure and certain that I have been thru hell as well and I can simply relate to it. I have cried a lot of times and you did as well. We both experienced great love but it never lasted and it turned out to be a failure. And the question is... did that stop us from loving again? No. It's our normal reflex already that everytime we fall down, we pick up ourselves... mend the wound and continue on loving.

Don't think of yourself as a pathetic individual just by listening to the voicemail messages or just by looking at the pictures. It's normal. And as days pass by, what happened will sink in more and that will make you feel worst. Definitely, you will be developing a new hobby and that is what we call WALLOWING. Wallow if you feel like wallowing... Cry if you feel like crying... do whatever it is you think right that can help you with the moving on process. Again, it's so easy for me to say all these things directly to you but these are the stuff I got from my friends like you when I was devastated and broken hearted before.

It may even reach to a point wherein you'll turn into jaded or cynic and you won't believe in ever after at all. And as what I have told you while we were talking... I am scared. With what had happened to me before... I don't think I am capable of loving someone or committing myself to be in a relationship. I know this is one of the phase we will be encountering and I'm still looking for some other ways that can help me in moving on totally. I have been convincing my self lately that I am not a partner material and that all I can offer is short time happiness. What a sad thought.

So now... we are on the same boat. And as a friend... I am always here if you needed someone to talk to. And I am the type of a friend that doesn't give mushy advices about life. If you think what you had is worth saving then save it and I will support you on that. All of us can give you advices but at the end of the day... you will still have to decide. But no matter what... we're always here to love you and support you.

And don't you ever forget... we need to stick together... the Kingdom of Pretty.

*Hugs*

I just received this text from a very good friend of mine who frequents BED in Malate. He informed me that BED will be opening here in Cebu and he mentioned there as well that finally, Cebu will be having a place for me to look for cute guys. If that's the plan... I am hoping they would open... SOON!

Oh boy this is such good news for me! I am getting tired with VUDU, FORMO and THE LOFT. It's a place where all heterosexuals gather. BED finally made a very good decision in opening one here in CEBU.

So now... I am calling all Homos in the CITY!!! We have a place to be... finally!

Love it! Love it! Love it!

Hear ye! Hear ye! Someone just gave me a big coital headache last night and that was crazy. Another mind blowing sex session and feeling a bit dizzy with all the alcohol intake. Objective one completed.

After a week long of crazy work, a queer like me deserves a crazy sex as well. As what they say... take one step at a time in getting over your past. I hope this therapy will work for me. But sad to say... after you came... you will still feel empty. Literally and figuratively speaking.

And I have been dying to go back with badminton again but my condition won't allow me to do so. The stitch from my apendectomy is fine but I am not sure yet if the wound inside is fully healed. And as what my doctor said, I need 3 more months to stay away from my cardio activites. I feel so slothy. All I do is work, eat, sleep, get drunk, and get laid.

The monotony is killing me. What a BORE!

Here I am, thinking that I am finally over with my ex. So, I have decided to check on my friendster for some updates. Did the usual routine... approved some requests... read the messages... checked who viewed me (hoping that my ex tried checking on it but nada)... and as usual, nothing interesting. Same old boring stuff.

I was convincing myself not to check on my ex's friendster account but I did still. Typed in his e-mail address and his profile popped out. Clicked on it and checked on his pictures... I felt pain. I felt a heavy heart. Is it normal to feel that way? I don't know. Now I'm confused again. I'm totally fucked up!

I MISS HIM! God when will this stop?!?

Help!

Stayed in the office for more than 14 hours yesterday and slept the entire day. I woke up with a crazy sore throat and super hard cough. And now I sound like a shit! I am officially sick but I can't afford to be absent. I need to finish tons of stuff and I guess that left me with no choice.

I'm a slave... Big Time!

Cough... cough... cough...


P.S.

I need to unload! Fuck! I better get me some shag this week. It's been a while!

Just got back from Manila for the said interview... and remember the promotion that I have mentioned earlier? Guess what? I FUCKINLY GOT IT!!!

My year is complete since there was a movement in my career!

And I had a dinner date right after my interview with this someone special from CVG-1. He brought me to THE FORT and grabbed some italian food in CAFFE PUCCINI. Love it!

And oh yeah... it's his birthday! Happy Birthday Patx! (Now you know his name!) Ahihihihihihi...

Gotta get some sleep now. Been up for more than 24 hours! Until then sweeties!

LOVE TRIANGLE?!?

Simon, Arvi and Moi!

Nahhh... got nothing interesting to post here actually. Just browsing some of the pictures from the Halloween Party and this is my favorite so far. Call me Narcissistic or what but I do like with the way I look in this picture. I think I am in love with myself.

Gotta have myself cloned and keep him as my partner. Bwahahahaha... What a crazy thought. But just imagine... having sex with someone that looks like you. Or say... Raymund G. having sex with Richard G... Isn't that H-O-T??? Or I'm just weird.

I may say that Better Days are coming and will embrace me soon. These past few days had been rough for me with all the break up and all but I'm proud to say that I am standing still and wearing a smile on my face.

For a starter... I will be leaving for Manila this coming Tuesday, November 7 for an interview at our Main Office in CVG-1 Makati for a higher position. Yes... your bitch here was short listed and I hope I can get the spot. Some people from the Office are saying that it's a sure ball for me that I have the said position already but I don't want to celebrate until it's over and was announced formally. I'm a bit excited about it and yes... I am happy. Putting your head first at work does pay and having my heart broken was some sort of a blessing in disguise. Oh well... not really. I have been doing some stuff here at work just to be noticed and to be recognized as well. Whew...

I hope my plans will work out perfectly. I have said to myself that after a year with this Company... I will be promoted at least one level higher. Move gradually to the top. And having a love life is not at the top of my priority list. Let's say... it's at the bottom and I don't give a shit. ;-)

Just the thought of me in Manila for only a day is a complete bummer. Imagine this... I'll get my ass there this Tuesday at 6:30 pm... the interview is at 8:00 pm and after that, I'm off to Alabang to visit our site that handles the same account and assist some of the people there. And at exactly 4:30 am the next day, I'm off to the airport to catch the 7:30 am flight back to Cebu. No time for fun. Plain work. What a LOSER. :-(

To my dearest friends... remember what I told you before about this guy from our Makati Office? That is committed until now but I haven't denied the fact that we went out a long time ago (twice)? When he visited Cebu for a function? And that we showed our affection to each other? It's his FUCKING Birthday on the 8th and I'm still thinking if I will extend one more day there to spend it with him. And we have planned something out actually... Maybe some dinner. What do you think? Will I change my flight schedule back or what? And oh yes... before I forget... It's my ex's birthday as well. Coincidence? Two of them have the same birthday. Cosmic Faith? Hahahahaha... Whatever!

And for now... Let me enjoy my career and my clubbing with friends.

Romance? It will come in handy.

Will keep you posted.

Remember the pictures I mentioned to you from my previous post? Regarding the halloween celebration that we just had here in the office? Well, thanks to Arni and she uploaded all of them to her multiply account. Just click on the link if you want to take a look at it and start laughing or making comments out of it.

Goddess Arni's Gallery

Have fun you bitches!


P.S.

I just realized that I do love my straigh-guy-with-no-trace-of-being-gay-look. Baseball cap and all. But worry not... I am still 100% gay. Proven and Tested!

Halloween Galore!

Everybody in the office are dressed up for the Halloween Event! You can see angels everywhere... witches... devils... gods and goddesses... wedding corpse entourage... anything. You name it, we all have it here in the office. And I tell you it's so funny and everytbody's feeling like a kid doing a trick or treat.

As for me... I wore my Hospital Gown when I had an operation... put some make up that made me look like a cadaver... and borrowed the wheel chair from the clinic. I was like pushing myself here on the floor making other people laugh.

Later during the night, my friend Erwin let me borrowed this wig... long hair with bangs and I put some head band on it and wore it like a proud diva. Everybody had a blast and I was sashaying the floor this time with my long fake hair. They took my picture and as soon as I have a copy of it, I will definitely post it here.

And for Mikey and the rest of the gang... they were in teatro enjoying the halloween party. Those bitches! Hmp!

Too bad my plan to have a highlights did not happen earlier. I hate it. I ended up getting myself some glasses since my vision has started to play with me. Yes... I don't have a 20/20 vision now. Boohoo... I am sporting this goodie-goodie-mature-look now because of this glasses.

I'm tired and it's almost the end of my shift and I can't wait to throw myself on my bed...


P.S.

I will be going to Cagayan de Oro this coming December 6 to attend a wedding then travel all the way to Davao on the 9th and fly back to Cebu on the 14th. This is the first time I will set foot on those places and if you know someone that could show me around, please let me know. Until then! ;-)


UPDATE: I would like to thank Helen for giving me the cd with the song "I'm not missing you" from track 1 to 18. Oh yes... And now I will play it in my place until Yaya Ising decides to choke me to death from hearing the same song over and over again. ;-) Include Erwin and Alex as well...