It's been like two years since I had my first tattoo session. Yes, it was on my left ankle and it's kinda thick. That experience was something. And I didn't realize that I will be revisiting that same experience again. I can really feel the needle finding their ways to touch my bone on my ankle. I forgot that the area I chose to have an ink was a freaking bone. Not a muscle. But there was no turning back. Outlines were made. So just finish it and swallow the pain. But I am not a masochist okay? :-)

After my first session, I had another session with the tattoo artist to apply the second coating or something or to what they call retouch. I thought I am done with it. But after a few months, the look of it is not that good. The shadings are not even. And it took me a while to decide if I will have it fixed... again. So, technically, yesterday was like my third session. And that's equivalent to three tattoo sessions. But it's worth it. The feeling of fulfillment is there knowing that you did surpass the agonizing pain. If others can do it, then I can do it better. But to let you know guys, it doesn't end there. I am planning to add more. But I won't tell you where and how will it look like. I will just post something here. Maybe next week, next month, we don't know. It all depends on how I think. 

Sooner or later, you'll start to miss the pain. You will look for it. Do the same thing. And realize later that you're somewhat addicted to it. For me that is not masochism. It's only the feeling of fulfillment as what I have mentioned earlier. I guess that's what they call THE KING OF PAIN? And yes, for me it's therapeutic. Stress Reliever. Right after each sessions I feel better. Like a new person. Weird right? Oh well I know I am not the only one with the same feelings toward the experience of inking ones self.

Hmmmm... some Tibetan Scripture at the back will look great right? We will soon know! 

It's been like ages since I have posted something in this blog. It's kinda weird. And while reading at my old posts, I end up asking myself if I was the one who created that entry. I ended up asking questions to myself. What happened at that time? What prompted me to write such entry? Was I devastated and in pain? Or was I happy and bursting with positive aura? Who cares! I am still amazed by those entries. It was like reading somebody else's blog. And now, while creating this post... my current mood and feeling is HOPEFUL. Yes, I am hoping...

I have been thinking a lot of things these past few days. How am I doing? What's the status of my life right now both with work and personal? I guess with work everything is cool. Everything is in its place and there's no need to re-arrange anything. But what about my personal life? I need to re-model everything. I need to re-arrange, add, and throw some parts of it. There are things that I need and there are things that I no longer need. So, I created a list on what are the things that needs re-arranging, that needs to be garbaged, and those that I need to be added.

In:                                                              Out:

1. A stable partner.                                     1. Random dates.

2. A place of my own.                                 2. Excessive alcohol bingeing.

3. More quality time with myself.               3. Partying/Clubbing.

4. More quality time with my family.          4. Excuses with family.

5. Healthy lifestyle.                                    5. Sedentary lifestyle.

6. Open a savings account.                         6. Unnecessary spending.

7. True and real friends.                             7. Seasonal friends.

8. New environment.

For now, it's what I could think of. I may not be successful in following the list but at least I was able to assess my life for now. What prompted me to have this? I guess I can say that over the weekend, I have learned and realized some things. Questions popped out. A lot of them. And I know I have answers to those questions. But then, am I ready for it? Am I ready to leave the comfort zone I am in right now? Or is it the perfect time to venture out and start a new life.

Well... I don't know. 

Just a thought...

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE! 

This has been a long overdue post... Trying to contemplate if I should let the people know how drunk I was at that time. Oh well, it's given. Almost everyone knows I drink like there's no tomorrow. Oh yeah, if you want proof, then drink with me and you will know what I'm talking about.

This was like a week right after my Bora trip. I think so... We went to our friend's place and we brought like three (3) long necks of Emperador Brandy. The session was smooth and fun. One bottle down... Still functioning normally. Second bottle down... Still warming up. Third bottle down... Kinda tipsy I guess. Then, Devy, a good friend of mine took one bottle of Bailey's (Choco Mint) and put it on the table for consumption of course. Put some in my glass... and the next thing I know... I'm at home already. Everything after that was blackhole. I can't even remember a thing.

The next day... they told me what really happened. BTW, at first I don't believe that people could get memory lapses when they are drunk. I thought they were just making up stories to cover and protect themselves from shame. But it's true. That was the first time it happened to me. According to them, I drank the Bailey's by myself after Angel got her single shot from it. And I went to the restroom, and when I stepped out from it, I was only wearing my boxer briefs and shirt. The girls were like screaming and they helped me put on my pants. They said I was like walking with no reaction. I call that AUTO-PILOT MODE actually.

They brought me home after that and I walked the other direction. There's even a need for them to drag me, literally, and I kept on saynig that I'm just fine when in fact, I almost fell like a number of times. Geez... And the next thing I know, I'm on my bed, having the worst head ache.

Having said that... and remembering that incident from time to time... It leaves a smile on my face. That was really fun I must say. And good thing I have my boxer briefs on. What more if I don't have any at all. What a ruckus! It will top all of my embarassing moments in life.

And right after that day, I swore to not drink anymore. And guess what... as I was creating this post, my head hurts actually from last night. Yes, I was drunk... again... But no embarassing moments this time. Last night's concoction was Emperador Brandy and Red Horse. Love it!

Until the next drinking session guys... Oh yeah... That will be tonight!

*hik*

Lately... I have been wondering how does it feel to have a female partner. Does it feel the same way as having a male partner? Oh geez... I just can't fathom the idea still.

It's just that my current partner opened the idea on how would I feel if he will get married and have kids in the future. And that I will still be his partner at the same time. Of course my initial reaction would be to say NO. Definitely. But considering maturity, I guess he made sense in a way. IMO, I am not ready with that kind of set up. Good thing it was only an idea. And I hope he won't even push thru with it.

Which made me wonder... how about if I will do the same thing? Even when I'm intoxicated... still I don't think I can do it. It was only in high school wherein I kissed a girl (enter song "i kissed a girl and i like it"). And it was something I have never played in my head over and over again. The thought leaves a smile on my face. Kinda laughing at myself at the same time. Why? What made me decide to do that before? Peer pressure I guess. But now, nobody can pressure me. I have embraced the life in the other side of the court.

Oh cut the crap. It will never happen... AGAIN! Ahehehehe....

A little birdie told me that one of our previous employees (I think he was terminated) was detained for at least a day because of Belo.

Now, before you react to this one... let me tell you the whole story.

It's all because of the Belo Facial Scrub. This person attempted to perform a perfect shop lifting stunt but was caught by the guards at Rustan's Grocery Store. Can you imagine that? Who on earth would do such a thing. Belo Facial Scrub? Is it really that good that can drive someone to do such an act? Funny but true.

When this person was asked the reason why he did it, he just stood there and said nothing. Until the security group decided to send him to the police station and asked him to pay the price of that freaking facial scrub which is twenty times higher that it's original price. Now, I don't know the cost of that thing but if you have an idea, then you can figure out how much did he pay so that he can be released from the police station. Yes, you got it right. It's a "he". But I'm thinking an "it". Oh who cares. The point here is that you shoplifted. Dumb ass!

Crazee crazee crazee. Good thing you were no longer connected with us when you committed such act. Now, if you're reason is "for fun"... I will definitely spit on your face. But I don't think I can do it. I am too nice to do that to someone in dire need to fix his face.

As what they say, It's hard to face your problem if your problem is your face. Right? Right!

I have been drinking Tanduay when I was still in High School. Yes, I know I did and with my mom's consent of course. I usually ask permission from her that I will be going home late from school since we will be having a drinking session with my classmates. I was trained early I guess. Same with smoking. And Tanduay has been the cheapest that we can get. We sometimes call it "kiddie meal 1=lapad and marlboro, kiddie meal 2=long neck, marlboro, kiddie meal 3=long neck, pulutan, marlboro..." and the list goes on.

My mom allowed me thinking that if I will start drinking early, I'll get tired of it at an early stage as well. I guess she's wrong with that. Right? ;-)

And that was the time wherein we can only try red horse on special occassions. Good thing I've outgrown Tanduay. I even swore not to drink Tanduay anymore. Just the smell of it can make me puke in less than a minute.

But last Thursday, I've paid homage to Tanduay. Me and Angel (a new friend) drank 2 lapads of Tanduay. Just the two of us in C24. It was a boring night and there's no Emperador, so we settled with the next one closer to it. We thought we wouldn't like it but instead, we enjoyed drinking it up to the last drop. Hahahaha...

And on the next day, we had 2 long necks of Emperador. Where? My new drinking place. In Horseshoe Drive, Banawa. Just near my place actually. I just love that place. The whole family welcomes me especially to drink. Or if you're too drunk to go home, you can always crash at their place. Thanks to Tisay and Angel and the rest of the group. Hehehehe... I know I have stopped drinking for the longest time but things are back just like the good old days. Oh well, once an alcoholic will always be an alcoholic. No matter how hard he tried.

And the funny thing there is that you always swear the next day you woke up with the worst hang over not to drink again. But lo and behold... if someone will text you for a drinking session, automatically you don't know how to say no. You just drag your ass there literally and go back to the same cycle. Oh well... don't you just love it?

What about you? which of the two do you prefer? Tanduay or Emperador? *hik*

I can say 100%, basing from observable behaviors that these facts are true if you just had a break-up with your partner...

1. All of the songs that you've listened are all related to you.

2. Even RnB and House musics; still you can relate them to you.

3. You alcohol binge all the time trying to ignore the whole fact that you're single again.

4. You pretend like you're happy and you're not affected (let's face it, this is part of the whole exercise).

5. You update your friendster, multiply, blogspot and other network related tools for your personal gain.

6. You started watching movies alone. (Which I miss so badly).

7. You suddenly get in touch with old friends who's there with or without a partner.

8. You realize and thank those people who's still there even if you haven't seen them for like six months. (You know who your are guys... love you all).

9. All of a sudden there's an urge for you to change your hairstyle (case in point, hair color).

10. You go back to shopping and more shopping.

11. You're back in the social circuit. Clubbing, clubbing and clubbing.

12. Your phone batteries will last for like three (3) days maximum.

13. You sleep the whole day without any worries.

14. You spend more time with your pet unlike before. (I know Bruce is happy with this).

15. Adjusting to the whole new routine. Kinda difficult but this too shall pass.

16. You start to listen to different people about the stories that's going around about your break-up. Which I hate. They all have different versions.

17. Your mom will immediately know without telling her. I bet they ESP. :-)

18. When you go out on a weekend you feel like you don't know most of the people.

19. Or when you know someone, they'll really know why you're out. Alone.

20. You'll start paying respects to Marlboro, Vodka, Red Bulls and Red Horse.

I'll add more... if something new will come up.

Oh well, these are some of the things actually that I have noticed. And I know some of my friends noticed this as well.

As what they say... each one of us uses different ways to cope up with what happened. And I intend to stick to what I am doing right now.

HAKUNA MATATA!

Stolent from Marti!

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x ) Smoked A Cigar
(x ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x ) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 6

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class -yah i did but its for the lone reason of polishing dance routines..
(x ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die - my mom (sigh... missing her so much!)

SO FAR: 10

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Multiply Contacts
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking - many many times. haha.

SO FAR: 13

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi - i love all foods! =)
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x ) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 15

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel ---- will it count if you did it on a white sand beach?

SO FAR: 20

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding - mudding? whats mudding?!
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 23

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School - haha, with all he partying? you just can't help it! zzzzz.

SO far: 27

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 29

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 33

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident - I was the one driving...

SO FAR: 36

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
(x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR : 38

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look - gotta shed all these flabs!
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes - i still use it until now..

SO FAR: 41

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Felt like you where dying

SO FAR: 44

Level 16
(x) Cried to sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 49

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't - i just can't help it sometimes

(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose - hahaha... its painful
(x) Kissed In The Rain - .

SO FAR: 53

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere - camping & bonding moments!!! =)

SO FAR: 57

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey - i can't believe this could happen!

SO FAR: 60

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls

( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x)Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" - my expression... hehehehe

( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 62

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish - haha.
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 66

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs - .
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 69

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 72

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
(x) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 75

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken - how do you play chicken?
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused - shallow me

SO FAR: 79

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later -

(x) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried - most of time
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 83

Level 28
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name - bad in remembering them
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

SO FAR: 89

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
(x) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling - fun fun!
(x) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 94

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs - hahahaha.
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 98

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
(x) Had sex in the rain
(x) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

TOTAL: 100

Repost this with the title:
I've Done 100 of the 120 stupidest things.
(with your total in that blank spot.)

Once upon a time, there was a gay guy who all of a sudden, changed his hair color from black... to ash brown.

Question: What do you think is the reason why this gay guy changed his hair color?

a. He's bored with his life?

b. They broke up with his partner?

c. He doesn't know what to do with his small amount of money?

The first who can guess it right will have a special price from ME! :-)

July 1, 2008 was the date I signed up with Fitness First to do something about my weight. It was a hard decision for me since I am not a health conscious person nor conscious about my weight, as what I have stated from my previous post. Nor I could imagine myself counting the calorie content before consuming those food that I have been craving thinking that it will be a torture from my end. If only not for Lexie from losing 30 lbs in like 3 months then I would never have the motivation I need to make the first step. Thanks Lexie. You made it all happen.

And in less than a month, I have lost 6 lbs already. Cutting down on my carbo intake and making sure that I don't starve myself and eating lite food every three hours. It was an effort from my end at first but after knowing that there's indeed a result, it feels great and I feel the urge to lose more. Which I know by the way that I can do it. I have set a target that by next year, I will achieve my desired weight and be able to wear trunks confidently (right Lexie?).

This time I have my mind on it and I am determined to finish this. Thanks to my partner for motivating me as well to do something about my health. And to my friends from pushing me as well and for motivating me. As what they say... Motivation is what gets you started, habit is what keeps you going.

You won't be seeing much of me especially during night-outs since I've made some control measures in my alcohol intake as well. I would love to surprise you guys when you see me that I have indeed lost weight noticeably, hopefully by next year. LOL.

Surprise! Surprise!

PS. Motivate me more... Leave a message here my friends! :-)

Lemme update you guys with what's going on in my life...

I know I haven't been paying much attention to my Multiply Account. Hell to my Friendster as well. I can't even remember the last time I have opened my Friendster... and I guess that was eons ago.

Okay, here are some of the things that are kinda new in my life right now... and most of them are just the same and going stronger. Lovelife for one is doing great. On to our 6th month. Yipee!

1. Started working out and burning some extra calories. Yes, it was a major decision for me knowing that I don't believe in going to the gym and be one of those health-conscious individuals. But gaining weight and reaching *** lbs. is crazy. And so far I have been religiously doing the things needed for me to achieve my desired weight and body structure. Hopefully I'll join the modeling and showbiz career by then. It's never too late. Bwahahahahaha... (Ultimate Goal: to-die-for-abs)

2. I have achieved my goal as well when it comes to my career. For now, I am happy with it and I'll stay focus and I don't have any plans yet to what will be the next stop. I am too young for the next level I guess and I need to learn and apply new things in the industry that I am in.

3. Night life and clubbing has been at the bottom of my priority for now. Yes, that's true. And I can say that this is new. Though I went out last Saturday but that was to spend some time with my Sups as part of our bonding session. And it was the first time I got drunk after 3 or 4 months? I am not sure even. Hehehehehe... I just realized that I can outlive it pala.

4. I will be pursuing my MBA. Aside from work, I need to divert my focus and time as well in studies. I have been planning for this for the longest time and I will be starting hopefully this coming semester. Need to add something in my portfolio. And I know this is just the right time for me to do it.

And next month i'll be celebrating my birthday and I'm going to add one digit higher in my age. I guess those changes that I have in my life are clear manifestations that I am no longer a kid. Things seem to fall in its right places at the right time. I have never felt contented and happy with my life right now. Gone are the days wherein i'll go home wasted every chance that I get away from work. Or even on a working week.

I haven't seen some of my old friends and I have to admit I miss them. But you know that you're still my friends no matter what. We may not spend much time just like before but I know when we have the chance to spend some company, it will be the same. The laughters and those old stories... See 'ya around guys okay? I hope you are all doing great.

Until then! *smooches*

P.S.

My Birthday is on August 10. Save it in your calendar now. :-)

Hey! Sorry about the previous post. Just some misunderstading with my partner and now we are back on track. It's my last day here in Zamboanga now, and I will be flying back to Cebu tomorrow morning.

The reason why I am here is to meet his family and to have a long vacation with him of course. And this whole trip did some miracles. We have spent more time together and we were able to get the rest/break that we have been wishing for the last 2 months, away from work and all.

BTW, his family is so cool and so are his friends. They have accepted me wholly and I can really feel their support and love for our relationship. Let's put it this way... I am calling his mom as "mama" and his siblings are calling me "kuya". Isn't that great?

I will be posting some of our pictures when I get back. And I will be posting some in my multiply account as well.

Toodles! :-)

All Good Things Come to an End...

Some people are destined to be happy... some are destined to be sad... some are destined to be married... some are destined to be single... and I guess i'll always end up the latter...