Posting here my pic taken during our Meeting in the Conference Room... That was boring and got nothing to do... Hehehehehe...

Enjoy while it lasts...

Well, things are not meant to last. Not for all though... I was really thinking that the person I was dating/seeing will stay for keeps. Been clinging on it for quite sometime but we can't blame the circumstances.

I have to admit the magic at first was so intense and that you can't stop thinking of that person. It seems that your hand has a life of its own and that the moment you wake up, you look for your phone and start texting that person. Simply because he's the person that was tattooed on your mind. I am thankful though that for quite a while, the moments were special and that really made me smile.

I have a confession to make, the first time we met up with this guy, I was in a shaky relationship. I was unfair to my ex. I have to admit I used him at that time to cover the pain I was suffering from my previous relationship. I was in deep shit and I can't even think on what is the right thing to do.

Let's call this ex-ex of mine as Person A (not the latest ex). I can't forget the feeling I felt the first time I saw Person A from my previous Company. He's a trainer there and the courtship period was like WHOOOAAAHHHHH... He really knows how to make me cum, I mean to make me smile and to make all the butterflies in my stomach flap their wings. The whole year relationship was so magical and so perfect. I was proud at that time of myself thinking that I am capable of handling a relationship without any extra affairs. Yes, I gave myself a pat on the back at that time. But then, in the long run, shortcomings were encountered, some road blocks, arguments and stuff. I am the type of person who denies things of reality that the picture is turning ugly. I was so patient and understanding to Person A even if failed things are not my fault. I say sorry first even if it's not my mistake just to settle everything. I have reached my boiling point and I have decided to teach Person A a lesson. I broke up with him a week after our anniversary just to make him realize how important the relationship is. But then, it made things worse. After a week from our break-up, he started dating someone else. This really made me crazy and disoriented. Poor me, I've begged for his love again and asked him to came back to me. But I guess, he find the new guy more sexy, younger and God-knows-what-other-reasons. It took me 3 months to recover from my misery. Seeing myself at work crying is not healthy for me anymore. Anywhere I look in the office reminds me of him. That was when I decided to accept the offer from the other Company. Blessing in disguise, the pay is high, higher from the previous company and I was able to move on with my life. Like who am I kidding? Moved on with my life? I guess not...

Then, I met Person B. Met him in a bar here in Cebu, had a short talk and he went home with me. Nothing happened my friends... Totally nothing. We ended up talking about love and life. Then, on that same night, we decided to hook up together. We became partners right there and then. I have to admit that was like a stupid decision. Hiding the truth from everybody that I am doing okay and that I am happy with my life now. In the entireity of the relationship, I caught him cheating on me twice. Poor guy, he doesn't know what's my principle in cheating. If I caught my partner cheating on me once, I'll do the same thing multipy it by ten! Since he did it twice, I cheated on him for say... 20th time? Without him knowing about it of course. I have been contemplating on ending up the relationship with Person B. But everytime I started talking, he cries. I don't want to see person crying in the first place and I feel so sorry for him. That was the reason why it took me time to broke up with him. I don't have the courage to do it. Arggghhhhh... My friends are telling me that I should end up everything since Love is non-existent (which is true). And you wanna know who gave me the courage to end up my relationship with Person B??? He's the one I'm referring to from my previous posts...
It all started here in Downelink. He sent me a message informing me that he'll be dropping by Cebu. Well, for the details, just read my previous posts okay (My Best Birthday Gift)? So, this person informed me last week that he'll be here in Cebu. I was so excited about it coz I'm planning to tell him everything about my past and the real score about what I feel towards him. We met up in Tinder Box yesterday in Banilad. I was smiling and happy coz I'm right infront of the person who gave me courage to move on with my life. But to my surpirse, he opened up everything first, telling me that what he felt before was like temporary or something. I have to admit I have noticed some changes. He's not texting me everyday and stuff like that. Well, one big factor actually is distance. It's quite hard for a relationship to sustain if you're far from each other. He's from Manila by the way and I am stuck here in Cebu. To my surprise, I was able to handle it well...

I have said to myself that I won't drown myself in tears again (God knows until when...). We parted ways as good friends, I was in pain and did not show it to him. Kept my compusure and exposed those pearly white teeth again, giving him an assurance that I am doing pretty well. Good thing my friends were there, lifting me up and making me feel that life is beautiful. Too beautiful to entertain pain and sufferings.
Back to basics again my friends. Gotta work like a mad dog, continue earning money and splurge it on clothes and shoes. I hafta take some time out first and spend more time with myself and my friends. *sigh*

Why do things never last? Why oh why oh why... I guess I'm doomed to be single forever. Let's drink and smoke to that! ;-)


*******To my friends: Mikey, Glen, Gil and Winston,

Thanks for bringing all the fun and laughter in my life again... Enjoying all the Orgasmic House Musics while drowning ourselves with Cursed Alcoholic Beverages. See ya this weekend again guys... ;-)