It's been like two years since I had my first tattoo session. Yes, it was on my left ankle and it's kinda thick. That experience was something. And I didn't realize that I will be revisiting that same experience again. I can really feel the needle finding their ways to touch my bone on my ankle. I forgot that the area I chose to have an ink was a freaking bone. Not a muscle. But there was no turning back. Outlines were made. So just finish it and swallow the pain. But I am not a masochist okay? :-)

After my first session, I had another session with the tattoo artist to apply the second coating or something or to what they call retouch. I thought I am done with it. But after a few months, the look of it is not that good. The shadings are not even. And it took me a while to decide if I will have it fixed... again. So, technically, yesterday was like my third session. And that's equivalent to three tattoo sessions. But it's worth it. The feeling of fulfillment is there knowing that you did surpass the agonizing pain. If others can do it, then I can do it better. But to let you know guys, it doesn't end there. I am planning to add more. But I won't tell you where and how will it look like. I will just post something here. Maybe next week, next month, we don't know. It all depends on how I think. 

Sooner or later, you'll start to miss the pain. You will look for it. Do the same thing. And realize later that you're somewhat addicted to it. For me that is not masochism. It's only the feeling of fulfillment as what I have mentioned earlier. I guess that's what they call THE KING OF PAIN? And yes, for me it's therapeutic. Stress Reliever. Right after each sessions I feel better. Like a new person. Weird right? Oh well I know I am not the only one with the same feelings toward the experience of inking ones self.

Hmmmm... some Tibetan Scripture at the back will look great right? We will soon know! 

Just a thought...

It's been like ages since I have posted something in this blog. It's kinda weird. And while reading at my old posts, I end up asking myself if I was the one who created that entry. I ended up asking questions to myself. What happened at that time? What prompted me to write such entry? Was I devastated and in pain? Or was I happy and bursting with positive aura? Who cares! I am still amazed by those entries. It was like reading somebody else's blog. And now, while creating this post... my current mood and feeling is HOPEFUL. Yes, I am hoping...

I have been thinking a lot of things these past few days. How am I doing? What's the status of my life right now both with work and personal? I guess with work everything is cool. Everything is in its place and there's no need to re-arrange anything. But what about my personal life? I need to re-model everything. I need to re-arrange, add, and throw some parts of it. There are things that I need and there are things that I no longer need. So, I created a list on what are the things that needs re-arranging, that needs to be garbaged, and those that I need to be added.

In:                                                              Out:

1. A stable partner.                                     1. Random dates.

2. A place of my own.                                 2. Excessive alcohol bingeing.

3. More quality time with myself.               3. Partying/Clubbing.

4. More quality time with my family.          4. Excuses with family.

5. Healthy lifestyle.                                    5. Sedentary lifestyle.

6. Open a savings account.                         6. Unnecessary spending.

7. True and real friends.                             7. Seasonal friends.

8. New environment.

For now, it's what I could think of. I may not be successful in following the list but at least I was able to assess my life for now. What prompted me to have this? I guess I can say that over the weekend, I have learned and realized some things. Questions popped out. A lot of them. And I know I have answers to those questions. But then, am I ready for it? Am I ready to leave the comfort zone I am in right now? Or is it the perfect time to venture out and start a new life.

Well... I don't know. 

Just a thought...